Hide and Seek

29 Nov


Last night we went Black Friday shopping at midnight.  Every year we go to the same outlet mall and walk around for hours, freezing and laughing as we bounce from store to store, the Christmas melodies of Judy Garland and Frank Sinatra crooning us along.  Alex’s family met us at the outlet mall, a good hour from our home, and we all walked together, commenting on our finds and giving unsolicited advice on possible purchases.

At about 4 in the morning I was done.  I literally couldn’t take one more step and opted instead to sit on a bench outside of Calvin Klein and smoke a cigarette while drinking a fountain Dr. Pepper.  I sat on the bench in the vicious cold with an instrumental version of Silent Night playing over my head.  Although I was absolutely freezing and exhausted, I was totally at peace.  In fact, I couldn’t remember a time in the past few months that my mind had been so free of distraction.  I sat for several moments watching the other shoppers laugh and speed along, most commenting on the cold or their purchases, and for a moment, I was not of their world, but just a fixture decorating their journey.  I was hidden.

And it was nice.  Sometimes I just like to hide. 

For now,



5 Responses to “Hide and Seek”

  1. poloandboxers November 30, 2013 at 7:34 pm #

    the only thing i miss about smoking are times like the one you describe. dr pepper and a cigarette sounds really good.
    glad you found your peaceful place in the middle of that craziness.

    • pamonn December 2, 2013 at 7:01 pm #

      Happy you related! Usually the craziness lies within for me!

      • poloandboxers December 2, 2013 at 7:27 pm #

        Nicely done sir. Good writing.

      • pamonn December 2, 2013 at 7:54 pm #


      • poloandboxers December 2, 2013 at 8:17 pm #

        I think smokers and former smokers have to stick together. Just in case there’s a zombie apocalypse. Because if THAT happens, we’re going to form one hell of an army. Smokers in search of more nicotine fixes? Are you kidding me? The zombies would not have a chance.

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